When did I become.....

When the heck did I become desireable to the opposite sex? For the previous twenty-seven years, girls did not pay a damn bit of attention to me. In the last three months, it has been totally different. I didn't do anything different. I'm still the same old dumbass, but for some reason I'm getting hit on. Hell even last night a girl wanted to come home with me, which I let her, but I was too uneasy to even lay a finger on her, let alone sleep with her.

Why is it all of the sudden this stuff is happening? I mean it's nice and all, but I don't want a relationship right now. I don't want to deal with the drama. I don't like being alone, but it's better for me than dealing with the drama. I'm comfortable in a drama free zone right now. So anyway, I think for the time being, I'm not going out after work anymore. (Except for tonight, since an old friend is in town, and I want to see him) Besides I don't want to hook up with a bar girl. Tried that once, it was a total mistake.

The good thing is, my confidence is getting higher. I've never been able to hold my head this high before. I think if I wanted to hit on a girl now, I could. I've never been able to do that. Maybe that's what it is. My confidence is getting higher. Is that what is appealing about me?

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