so damn

hungry.

I'm thinking of maybe trying to eat fish again. But they swim in their own shit. Ewww. What a freakin dilemma.

I should be working right now. Instead I'm fucking around on the internet.

I need to stop using so many bad words in this thing.

OK so Saturday night I'm out at a bar, and some dude just walks by me and shoves me. Normally that wouldn't bother me, but for some reason it did that night. I was ready to go out in the parking lot and beat some ass. But I didn't. I was then going to trip the guy as he walked by, but I didn't do that either. Then I thought, "Hey, I'll pick his pocket." Guess what? Didn't do that either. So what do I do? I wait until I'm leaving and walk up to him and plant my middle finger right in his face. The dude was so drunk he'll never even remember it. But it felt good. I've never really been a person to assert myself at all. I back down from everything. I'm not going to start fights or anything, but it feels kinda good to know that I could if I wanted. I'm feeling, what's the word, tough?

FIN