Let's see, shall we?

So I haven't been updating this much lately as I have had nothing new going on.

I'm convinced that the older you get, the more stuck in a routine you get. I'm stuck in a routine. It's not real fun, but it's safe. I don't have to worry about things happening that could potentially be bad. Of course, by the same token, I don't get to enjoy the little fun bonuses that come with taking risks.

I guess some things were just not meant to be.

FIN

Well what's new??

Well there was a lot of things that I wanted to say on here ytesterday, but I can't remmeber any of them. Things are slowly starting to turn around somewhat for me. The last couple weeks have been pretty rough, but I think I'm getting out of that funk.

Had some fun yesterday. A couple friends stopped by for a couple hours. Had some wickedly good food, and I bought another hookah. A nice one this time.

That's about all that is really going on my life. Nothing real exciting.

FIN

Wow.

I was really in a shitty mood last night. Tonight's shaping up to be the same. I was going to go hang at a friends place, but when I called back after eating, her phone was disconnected, and now have no idea how to get there. I guess some nights are just meant to be real boring. It's OK though. I really don't feel like leaving now anyway.

I do apologize to all the people that I might have pissed off or annoyed on the 4th. I had only slept two hours the night before, hadn't eaten all day, and decided to have a few drinks. I had about six bottles of beer, but it might as well been eighteen. I don't recall much after nine p.m. What I do know, I called a lot of people, a lot of times, and am not sure what was said. So to all of you out there, I am very sorry.

It won't EVER happen again.

FIN

And yet I continue to do it.

I'm about to embark on something that is going to blow up in my face. Why do I continue to do these things knowing full well what is going to happen? What underlying psychological problem do I have that makes me continue to do these things? I don't enjoy when things go wrong, but I know they always do. So why do I still make crappy decisions that screw me over emotionally?

It could be that I am some sort of closet masochist. Actually, I don't feel normal unless there's some sort of mental anguish going through my head. When I'm happy I know I'm overlooking something, and then my mind starts to go crazy, and then I cook up all these schemes that I really want to work, but they never do.

I just wish I could figure out how most people do it. That would be nice.

FIN

Late night thoughts....

It's late and I need sleep. But my mind keeps wandering back to one singular thought.

I want to stage the worlds first cagematch between a knife wielding chinchilla and an evil koala.




VS.




Man that would be sweet.

It took a little while, but I finally realized how much I gave up when I moved away from home. There's a lot of things that I'll never have away from home.

But I've gained so much more.

FIN

I just spent an hour on the phone with someone that I never thought I speak with again. I love modern technology.

FIN

I swear I'm going to do it.

I'm letting my hair grow long again. Not because I'm too cheap for a haircut, I'm too lazy to bother to get one.

FIN

Yeah.

Why does it feel like sometimes that life just gives you a swift kick in the shin? Let me explain......

Although painful, a kick a in the shin is more of an annoyance. It hurts for a little while, but goes away pretty quick. Every now and then though, for a little while when you're doing something, you get a little twinge. It only lasts for a few days, but you don't forget it's there. After a week, you're usually fine, but sometimes it sucks until then.

About a month ago, I met someone unbelievebly cool. Great conversationalist, smart as anyone I had ever met, extremely kind, and dare I say very good looking. We had a moment. You all know how those are. For that one brief moment in life, you forget all about all the other crap going on in the world. The starving kids, global warming, the homeless, all the personal crap in your own life, and you just bask in the glory of this one fine moment. You revel in the fact that for this instant, life is perfect.

As of now, this has been more than a month, since that time. Through no fault of either party, things just haven't shaped out. There are things I could have different, things she could have done different. I don't blame anyone.

The day after was the kick in the shin. Now the twinge has gone away.

I'll never forget the moment before the kick.

FIN

Ever heard of a Caganer?

Look at this silly little figure.



It's called a Caganer. Here's a little history thanks to Wikipedia-

A Caganer (IPA:/k?.g?.'ne/) is a little statue unique to Catalonia, Spain, and neighbouring areas with Catalan influence such as Andorra.

In Catalonia, as in most of Spain, the traditional Christmas decoration is a large model of the city of Bethlehem, similar to American Nativity scenes that encompasses the entire city rather than just the typical manger scene. The Catalans have added an extra character that is not found in the manger scenes of any other culture. In addition to Mary, Joseph, Jesus, the Shepherds and company, Catalans have the character known as the Caganer. This extra little character is often tucked away in some corner of the model, typically nowhere near the manger scene, where he is not easily noticed. There is a good reason for his obscure position in the display, for "caganer" translates from Catalan to English as "defecator", and that is exactly what this little statue is doing — defecating.

The reasons for placing a man who is in the act of excreting solid waste from his posterior in a scene which is widely considered holy are as follows:

1. The Caganer, by creating feces, is fertilizing the Earth. Thus, he is considered a symbol of prosperity and luck for the coming year.
2. Finding the Caganer is a fun game, especially for children.
3. Humor

I have to get me some of these. They have all sorts of them. Even a pope one.

This is my favorite.



Classic.

There are more here.