Today is my one year anniversary at my job. Whoo fucking hoo.
Oh, and I must get this movie . It has a character with my last name. Kick ass.
Tuesday, January 31, 2006
Rules were meant to broken.
So my love life is pretty miserable most of the time, because I stick to a set of rules I made and I will not break. You want to know my rules? No? Tough shit.
1. Never mess around with a married woman.
2. Don't date coworkers.
3. Never be "that guy."
4. Do not sleep around with bar girls.
5. Never let a family member fix you up with someone.
6. Never, ever make the first move.
7. Don't date girls with kids.
Now I've broken these rules in the past and it met with disastrous results. That is why I'm sticking to them, but by doing so I wonder if I am robbing myself of happiness? I can't tell right now, but I'd like to think that by following the rules, I'll be better off in the long run, but then, at the same time SCREW the long run. I think I deserve some happiness every now and then. Lord knows I don't get much of it.
I think my relationship rules are good, but I can't tell. All my readers (the four that I have) let me know. Should I modify them or keep sticking to them? I do deserve to be happy right?
FIN
1. Never mess around with a married woman.
2. Don't date coworkers.
3. Never be "that guy."
4. Do not sleep around with bar girls.
5. Never let a family member fix you up with someone.
6. Never, ever make the first move.
7. Don't date girls with kids.
Now I've broken these rules in the past and it met with disastrous results. That is why I'm sticking to them, but by doing so I wonder if I am robbing myself of happiness? I can't tell right now, but I'd like to think that by following the rules, I'll be better off in the long run, but then, at the same time SCREW the long run. I think I deserve some happiness every now and then. Lord knows I don't get much of it.
I think my relationship rules are good, but I can't tell. All my readers (the four that I have) let me know. Should I modify them or keep sticking to them? I do deserve to be happy right?
FIN
Sunday, January 29, 2006
What to do on my day off?
So since I've been having a blarg week, I've decided to make sure I have some fun on my weekend coming up on Wednesday.
So I saw this page here, and well I wanted to try it. Only thing is I'm too chicken shit to attempt it myself. So I'm not sure what to do. So afer a little research, I've learned that I cannot do it. Not with my limited budget. So I think I'll be launching a small animal. I'm thinking a rat. Now a single helium balloon will lift 14 grams. The average rat only weighs 525 grams. This would only take around 37 balloons. But for easy math, we'll figure 40. To rent a tank that will fill approx. eighty 16-inch balloons will cost $38.00. I'll just buy the ballons at a grocery store. It's a little too cold here to do it now, so I'll have to do a test run once I build a container for the rat. Including the cost of the rat, I think I can do this for under $80. And that would be exciting.
And for all you animal lovers out there, I will have a tether on the thing. I'm not that much of an asshole. But I am shooting down the ballons with a pellet gun.
FIN
So I saw this page here, and well I wanted to try it. Only thing is I'm too chicken shit to attempt it myself. So I'm not sure what to do. So afer a little research, I've learned that I cannot do it. Not with my limited budget. So I think I'll be launching a small animal. I'm thinking a rat. Now a single helium balloon will lift 14 grams. The average rat only weighs 525 grams. This would only take around 37 balloons. But for easy math, we'll figure 40. To rent a tank that will fill approx. eighty 16-inch balloons will cost $38.00. I'll just buy the ballons at a grocery store. It's a little too cold here to do it now, so I'll have to do a test run once I build a container for the rat. Including the cost of the rat, I think I can do this for under $80. And that would be exciting.
And for all you animal lovers out there, I will have a tether on the thing. I'm not that much of an asshole. But I am shooting down the ballons with a pellet gun.
FIN
Saturday, January 28, 2006
blarrrrrg.
I have had the most uneventful week in the history of uneventful weeks. Seriously something fun has to happen soon or I'll explode.
Tuesday, January 24, 2006
Monday, January 23, 2006
I thought
I thought I'd fill you all of you in on the details of the last week, but now I don't feel like it. Deal with it.
Sunday, January 22, 2006
What a week.
The last week or so has been pretty crazy. Tuesday after work I was in a car wreck. It sucked. Especially since the bitch that hit me had no insurance. That's probably why she took off after it happened. She didn't know not to fuck with Super B. I chased her ass down while I was on the phone with the cops. Her life is going to be a living hell now. I will make sure of it.
Friday I went to Chicago to see some friends. I think I had a good time, except for the pain in the ass parts. I'll me more visits there in the future. I'd write more now, but the room I'm in is dark, and I'm having a hard time seeing. There will a full detailed report of both the events tomorrow.
FIN
Friday I went to Chicago to see some friends. I think I had a good time, except for the pain in the ass parts. I'll me more visits there in the future. I'd write more now, but the room I'm in is dark, and I'm having a hard time seeing. There will a full detailed report of both the events tomorrow.
FIN
Monday, January 16, 2006
Seriously.
I'm trying to live my life free of all the bullshit now. The last few months have been filled with crappy drama. It was fun for a little while, but now I'm done with it. I just want a simple easy going life that I've had for the last few years (well except for a couple bumps). I want to live without having to worry that I'm disappointing people or letting them down. It's starting to bug me that people want me to hang out with them every single night. I haven't had a night to myself in quite some time. I can't say no to people, because I don't want to hurt their feelings. I feel I'm living everybody else's life and not mine. That has got to end.
It's just pissing me off that if I'm not where I'm supposed to be a certain night, I get all sorts of phone calls. I know it sounds stupid, (who complains about being popular) but it is a pain in the ass. I just want to do what I want, and not what everyone else wants me to do. I really hate to bring out asshole me, but I think it may happen. I'm perfectly content to be by myself right now. So if you're counting on hanging out with me this week, don't plan on it. If I happen to appear where you are, count it as coincidence.
On to more positive things now. I figured out some of the crazy that has been going on. I've done a lot of thinking and a lot of talking with one of my friends, and I'm finally starting to see some of the things that I have known but not wanted to admit. It is nice to finally admit them to someone, and talk about some of the things. It's hard as hell to admit some of the things especially since they go against my code of rules for life, but there is an exception to every rule, right? But I've broken this rule in the past and it bit me in the ass, so I'm not ready for it to happen again. It all goes back to doing what I want. I want to break the rule, but I don't want the consequences. Damn life.
Also I've finally realized how uncool I am. I thought of myself as hip, well up until recently. I'm not. I'm anti-hip. Which is good I guess, but I associate anti-hip as being old. I don't want to get old. Well older. I'm fine being 27. I doing the typical freak out thing now. I'm officially late twenties. The other day my said, "You know when I was your age, I was married with kids." That freaked me out. She then went on to say, "Have you thought about settling down?" Well the truth is I have. I've thought about it quite a bit. That scares the crap out of me. I'm not ready to be grown up. It looks like I have no other choice.
Would I like to settle down and get married someday? Yes, I would. Am I ready yet? No. But I think that if I wait much longer to start looking for someone, I'll be stuck with the people that others have passed up. That sounded bad. Um, I'll be stuck looking at the people that others have passed up for a reason. Probably a bad reason. I don't want leftovers. So now I'm stuck with kind of looking, but I'm not ready, and I know I'll end up stringing someone along, which will be bad for me and the others involved. I thought when you got older things would be easier. I had no idea how hard things can be. It's not something I'm enjoying.
Do I have anything else left to vent about? Yup.
I really need to find another job. I can't be stuck here much longer. It's driving me so far into debt. I can't afford to a lot of the things I like since I'm stuck paying into a car I hate. I should just dump it. Or drive it into a river. This has got me thinking. So if anyone out there reads this and knows of a good job that a person who has worked in TV for the last seven years can do, let me know. Anything audio realted would be a plus, or even Master Control.
Now I'm done.
FIN
It's just pissing me off that if I'm not where I'm supposed to be a certain night, I get all sorts of phone calls. I know it sounds stupid, (who complains about being popular) but it is a pain in the ass. I just want to do what I want, and not what everyone else wants me to do. I really hate to bring out asshole me, but I think it may happen. I'm perfectly content to be by myself right now. So if you're counting on hanging out with me this week, don't plan on it. If I happen to appear where you are, count it as coincidence.
On to more positive things now. I figured out some of the crazy that has been going on. I've done a lot of thinking and a lot of talking with one of my friends, and I'm finally starting to see some of the things that I have known but not wanted to admit. It is nice to finally admit them to someone, and talk about some of the things. It's hard as hell to admit some of the things especially since they go against my code of rules for life, but there is an exception to every rule, right? But I've broken this rule in the past and it bit me in the ass, so I'm not ready for it to happen again. It all goes back to doing what I want. I want to break the rule, but I don't want the consequences. Damn life.
Also I've finally realized how uncool I am. I thought of myself as hip, well up until recently. I'm not. I'm anti-hip. Which is good I guess, but I associate anti-hip as being old. I don't want to get old. Well older. I'm fine being 27. I doing the typical freak out thing now. I'm officially late twenties. The other day my said, "You know when I was your age, I was married with kids." That freaked me out. She then went on to say, "Have you thought about settling down?" Well the truth is I have. I've thought about it quite a bit. That scares the crap out of me. I'm not ready to be grown up. It looks like I have no other choice.
Would I like to settle down and get married someday? Yes, I would. Am I ready yet? No. But I think that if I wait much longer to start looking for someone, I'll be stuck with the people that others have passed up. That sounded bad. Um, I'll be stuck looking at the people that others have passed up for a reason. Probably a bad reason. I don't want leftovers. So now I'm stuck with kind of looking, but I'm not ready, and I know I'll end up stringing someone along, which will be bad for me and the others involved. I thought when you got older things would be easier. I had no idea how hard things can be. It's not something I'm enjoying.
Do I have anything else left to vent about? Yup.
I really need to find another job. I can't be stuck here much longer. It's driving me so far into debt. I can't afford to a lot of the things I like since I'm stuck paying into a car I hate. I should just dump it. Or drive it into a river. This has got me thinking. So if anyone out there reads this and knows of a good job that a person who has worked in TV for the last seven years can do, let me know. Anything audio realted would be a plus, or even Master Control.
Now I'm done.
FIN
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