Hmmm.

So I'm still sick. It's been twelve days now. It doesn't help that I only slept for about an hour last night, but it's kind of hard to sleep when you coughing up things that look like escargot all night. So I laid in bed all night and day coughing. Let me tell you how much fun that is.

Is there anything else new in my life? Well Thursday I hung out all night with the three members of the "octagon." At once. All at the same table. It was one of the most awkward moments of my life. Then when I was leaving the bar I was at, I glanced over at the car next to me, and saw two people doing the nasty in the back seat. I was parked right in front of the bar. It's not like I was parked far away or anything. I mean around twenty feet from the front door. You got to love hillbilly Indiana that I live in. Only here can you get a free porn show. But it's a porn show of people you don't really want to see. It took me a little while to figure who the two people were, but they're not anyone I want to see naked ever.

Other than that what else is new? Well, there have a couple other things of note. It was a year ago today that I tried to off myself. So I guess today is kind of a celebration of sorts. Not really a birthday, but I guess it'd be a deathday. So what have I accomplished in the last year to better myself? Pretty much not a damn thing. I'm still where I was a year ago. Miserable. Well I do have good days, which I didn't have then. But they are pretty far between. I think I'm having one today, but between being sick and getting only an hour of sleep, I can't really tell. I'll have to talk it over with my talkie friend. She'll know what to say. I always feel better after I talk to her.

So do end this post now? I'm kind of liking sitting here and typing. It's been a while since I had a meaningful post. Other than my usual self depreciating comments and rants, and the few joke posts I place here.

Here's an idea (can you see my attention jumping all over the place?) I'll make a list, a serious one, of seven things I want to accomplish in the next week. Next Saturday I'll compare and see what I actually accomplished.

1. Start looking for a place to live. Need to have on in a month.
2. Call the place for computer classes and set up a meeting.
3. Get the giant stack of mail sitting on my desk opened and organized.
4. Make a couple CD copies of albums for people as spur of the moment presents.
5. Finally get the cajones to ask a girl out on a serious date. Which I have never done.
6. Go through the crap in my basement and see what is actually worth keeping.
7. Wake up everyday before 11am.
7 1/2. Finish reading that book you started in October.

So next week we'll see what I've actually accomplished. I hope that I will be able to all of the them in the next week, and have some sort of feeling of accomplishment. The only feeling of accomplishment I have had in the past year is that I haven't accomplished anything, which is a actually quite hard. Slacking takes a lot of work, and making up excuses as to why you never did anything. It's very taxing on the mind.

Oh and I need to shake this damn cold.

FIN