BAHHH

It's now been close to 72 hours without a smoke. I'm fucking dying. I've had to shut my self up in the tiny little room I work in, just so I don't bite the head of someone. I didn't even want to quit, I just can't afford to buy smokes anymore.

In other news I still haven't figured out what the hell I'm going to do in December. In all likelihood I'll probably end up renting a storage facility and crashing on my dad's couch. I've got nothing else to do. I really want to do something else, but when you're stuck like me, there's not a lot to do.

But on the other front, I've been too busy to be depressed the last few days. It's been nice. I'm going to call the doctor tomorrow to ask about taking that pill that helps with depression and quitting smoking.

I've also decided to start actively looking for a relationship. I'm not really quite sure how to go about it, since I have a hard time just talking to girls in public, and I don't want to meet girls through the internet. My friends don't really know anybody to introduce me to, so I'm not sure how to go about it. If anyone has any advice I'd really appreciate it. I don't know where to start. I'm trying not to go to bars anymore, and I really don't want to meet a person at a bar anyway. Maybe I'll hang around the library, but I haven't been reading much the last few years, so I'm afraid I've gone stupid. I used to be fairly smart, but not so much anymore.

So how the hell do I go about this? I'm getting too old to wait any longer. That and I think I'm ready for a relationship again, since it's been a year and a half since the last one, which only lasted six months. My ponderings begin.

FIN