Lasciate ogni speranza, voi ch'intrate

I'm so confused right now. I don't really know what the hell is going on in my life. There are so many things that should be going good for me, but they are not. I should be happy but I'm not. What the fuck is my problem? The last few days everything has been great. Shit was worked out real well. So why the fuck am I still in a bad mood? I think I just need to talk to someone. Someone new with new ideas and views that I haven't heard before. I sure as hell am not paying for a shrink. Again. That was a ripoff. All he did was tell me that I had dysthymia . I knew what the hell was wrong with me, but I just didn't have a name for it. Shit, I've been battling this for 7 years. So I spent $200 to learn a new word. Man, fuck that.