Almost here

Finally the end of the week has arrived. I couldn't be more ready. The chance to escape the boring rituals of the Monday-Friday life is invaluable. I don't even have much planned, but just the fact that I don't is what makes me feel great. My life is usually so chaotic and busy, a few days of nothing will make me feel great.

I was listening to people talk about high school the other day and all the fond memories they have from it. It made me sad since I have no fond memories from then. I can barely remember anything from high school. I just remember getting weird looks and people snickering as I walked down the hall. It was not a happy time for me. I also hear stories about the great times people had when they were in college. I don't have those either. I'm a little jealous that these people have these great lives where as I had nothing. I have some good stories and times about when I was in my late teens and early twenties, but I feel left out when people talk about their high school and college experiences. I've always kind of felt left out of things, but I've never really known why until recently. I didn't have the same kind of life a lot of people have had. I know we're all unique and we should be proud of the lives we lead, since they are our own. But I would also like to have something that I can share with people. I don't feel as though I have much in common with a lot of people. And it's not that I want to be like everybody else, because let's face it a lot of people suck, but I would like to feel that I have something in common with a fellow person. I guess I still haven't found who I am, but I feel like I'm getting closer to the answer. I don't like me very much, but I do like the life I'm living now (around 60% of the time), and that will have to do for now.

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